Friday, November 25, 2011

Circle of Faith

Hi Folks,

I have missed you.

Some so-you-know information about me while I was gone.
- I finished my program in San Diego. Yay! I am fully on vacation right now.
- Yesterday, I had a sweet Thanksgiving day. Lovely housemate + TEMPE.
- This morning, on my way back home from Black Friday shopping, my car slipped (I drove too fast and the turn was too acute -- my bad) and went off-road (almost hit the turning sign). Thankfully, the car didn't tip. I should drive more carefully next time, I really should.

Anyway, right now I am trying to work on my final graduation project. It's a very long process -- meaning, I must not procrastinate any longer.

Reading the course outline briefly, in order to prepare me well for my final project, I need to know my passions, drivers, and ambitions and write them all down. It's easier to answer questions properly during an interview if I know myself inside out.

Looking at myself, my dreams, and the path that I am in right now, I realize that I am apart of what my parents want me to do (my Mom implicitly want me to go med school and my Dad feels that I'd be a good architect). It also means that I have been following my heart so far.

For me, following my heart expresses two things:
- I am all alone if things go wrong
- It is an exercise for my faith, and not just mine, my family's too.

Despite all my doubts and fears, Mom and Dad have been so supportive. They pray for me, encourage me and keep ensuring me that our God is faithful. It's funny that although they don't really understand what major I am in, they believe in me that much.

Sometimes I don't feel so comfortable about their faith in me. I feel like jeopardizing our family's faith. What if I am wrong, what if I should have listened to them and go to med school instead.

Yes, we shouldn't live our life according to people's expectations. One thing is true, we won't be able to satisfy them all. Thus, it leaves me no other choice but surrendering my future and my fears in the hands of the Almighty who promises that the righteous will inherit the land forever (Psalm 37:25-29) and the Almighty who is also God of Hope.

The circle of faith in my family, shouldn't stop in me. Have faith, Raissa, make it whole! Be a people of faith and see the awesome works of God!

Happy belated Thanksgiving!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Aha! Gotcha!

Better a patient person than a warrior,
one with self-control than one who takes a city. (Proverbs 16:32 NIV)

Sometimes and most if the time I think I am a very patient person. I rarely get angry. But, the truth of the matter is I am just introvert. I get to explode quickly inside.

I love the autonomy of a warrior. I think, it kinda brings the "cool" side inside me out. Even if it's only a prayer warrior. I don't mind. Like in movies, in my mind, I would still look like the 3-star general who kills the enemy's king.

But today, the verse states a different truth. It asks me to be patient rather than to look "cool" because being patient is cooler than being too brave and proud in the frontline.

(last paragraph)

Being a person who takes a city isn't wrong. I think, every society needs this kind of people who are bold, self-sacrificing, and loyal. However, a sieger or a warrior is normally impulsive. They are trained to attack first before they get attacked.

The truth of the verse brings me to picture a patient warrior who analyses the enemy and steadfastly wait for a better time to attack.