Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Boss G

It's been over a month since I came to Shanghai, China.

Life turns slightly different for me. It's not easy to get myself exist here. The main reason; the field is completely new for me -i.e. the working place and society. I have to learn to work hard -something that I didn't need to do before.

Now, waking up from my sleep is becoming more difficult. Facing the approaching day and reality puts so many pressure on me. Most morning, I had to take 10-20 minutes winning the battle of mind, trying to convince myself that I can become stronger.

This morning was one of those fierce morning. In complementary, a stomachache attacked me. I could have text Jo -my office manager- telling him that I couldn't make it to work, however, small voices -those smooth, soft, calming voices- grow a little courage in my heart; a courage to actually stand up and hope again for a better day.

At the end, I finally decided to move my feet towards the office. These thoughts convinced myself: my Boss is my God. He is the one who evaluates all my performances. Yes, I might not have big and fancy projects at the moment but I believe I won't do the same little task the rest of my life. His eyes are all over me now; I want to prove that I am worthy enough to receive my promotion.

God is the center of my universe.