Thursday, February 24, 2011

HADIRAT-MU

Lyrics : Sari Simorangkir
Music : Arvid Gunardi

DI HADIRAT-MU TEMPAT YANG KURINDUKAN
NAPAS HIDUPKU DAN SUMBER KEKUATAN
DI SANA KAU NYATAKAN ISI HATI DAN RINDU-MU
SEHINGGA KUMENGERTI BERHARGANYA HIDUPKU
HADIRAT-MU YANG MEMBAWAKU
TERIMA SEMUA JANJI-MU
MENGUBAH HIDUPKU MENJADI INDAH
HADIRAT-MU YANG MENGUATKAN
AKU DI DALAM PENGHARAPAN
YESUS UNTUK SELAMANYA HIDUPLAH DALAMKU

This song just came out of my mind this morning.
It reminds me that the only place I can feel safe and strong is in his presence.

God bless you, people!

Monday, February 21, 2011

Please wait, it's loading ,..

I wouldn't say that I am good at waiting.

I know what I need to do when I have to wait but I just can't do it right.

Oh, I really wish that it's going to come to true at the moment I pray, but no, it's not happening.

Faith, faith, o faith, why can't I have a little bit more of you?

Saturday, February 19, 2011

A Good Night's Sleep

Just as I woke up this morning, I wondered, "Did I just have a very good night's sleep?". I had not slept this sound for sometimes. Not until last night. I don't know myself why or how could that happen.

Amazingly, an answer comes straight to me. I read Proverbs 3 (The Message). In verse 24, it says, "You'll take afternoon naps without a worry, you'll enjoy a good night's sleep".

Who's the 'you' here? I guess, it's the friend who guards Clear Thinking and Common Senses with his life; and never loses sight of them for a minute (verse 21).

So, answer to the question is CT + CS.

Friday, February 18, 2011

A Girl's Night

It's been so long since I really pray, I felt.
Ah, this is what it's called praying with power and authority, I said to myself, praying in another dimension of prayer.

It was like a sudden urge in her heart and she just spit it out. She asked me lightly, "would you like to pray with me?". I was surprised. No one had asked me to pray except my Mom. I was reading my Bible back then, and I answered her spontaneously, "sure. why not?".

After that, we started singing a few songs and praising God. It was her who started the prayer. She thanked God for everything: for the day, the opportunity to be here, for our friends, our family and loved ones and even our troubles. Then she started to pray for me, my future and also her future. She ended the prayer with blessing the night. Complete and simple.

But when we prayed, I couldn't think of anything to pray for -usually when I and my mom pray, we always pray for one another and for one topic and another. It was strange, my mind went blank. But amazingly, she covered all the topics that I could pray for and when she said 'hallelujah' - closing the prayer or waiting for my turn to pray - I just said 'Amen'.

I opened my eyes after that and she did too. She told me afterward that it was the first time she prayed like that. Her prayers were very thorough and she really looked like an expert prayer when she prayed. She was shocked too, never imagined that she could pray like that.

I am very encouraged by her prayers and support. I guess, before the prayer, I just forgot how to pray, you remind me about the power of prayer, Jie! Thank you!

~when she prayed, the faith inside us grew really strong, and it was then reflected in our words -very powerful and refreshes body, mind and soul-~.

I faith

"Don't you worry just be happy, temanmu di sini", Project Pop sang.

Today my passport plus my US Visa are supposed to come but they are not here yet! It's more than 3 working days already (the website says that it might take 3-4 working days to send back my documents).

Should I worry? I shouldn't but I am worrying anyway. I guess, it's time to trust God once again! I faith Him!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Holiday Routine

1. more than 8 hours sleep
2. read Bible (new plan): Prof. Horner's Reading Plan
3. touch my second child (violin): not sure if i'm really practicing or not, at least my violin would still feel loved
4. graping (watch movies, drama series) or shopping
5. help Ce Lifi and fam (?) cooking and cleaning
6. skyping if there is someone on skype *waiting for someone*

is it good enough? huff

Monday, February 7, 2011

The Ex- or the In- ?

What's your motivation?
What is it that drives your thoughts and actions?
I ask myself those questions this morning.

I was startled by my own answer. I react to things and I do not make things happen. I wait and not actively searching.

I am more determined by the things happening outside me without considering what is inside me.

Oh yeah, I'm going to let it all go and believe that the Spirit in me is not the spirits if fear but the Spirit of victory.

~good morning, Daddy, ilu~