I would be facilitating the cell group in GUPta Youth tonight. So, for the last two days I have been browsing my old posts to find some inspiration and testimonies how God has changed my life.
I write down in my notes, "Christianity without change is a big fat lie."
Oh well, as I was going through the posts, I read and read a lot about the goodness, kindness, and magnificent works that God has done in my life. I was reminded about how He was there through my ups and downs; struggling to finish my thesis, looking for a job, surviving in a whole new world, facing a weird employer, and some more.
It was good read; very good one even. However, I find that I don't really write many posts about the change. The change that God has done in my life. I don't really say I was so bad and God made me this and that (better). The reasons could be that the changing process is not finished yet, but it might also be that there are completed processes which I am too shy to share. So I am now thinking to write the change that has happened throughout my life.
I used to be carefree (cuek). I cannot trust friends. I thought that friends were not real. I had an experience where the best of friends didn't consider me as best friends. I was hurted. So I shut myself up. I didn't want to make social contacts. I focused on the tasks I have been given. There was even a point, where I looked down on people. I wanted to live for myself.
God changes me now into a more socially-relatable person. I enjoy hanging out with friends. I began to find their worth. I treasure every moments, jokes, fights, and long discussions. I try to be there when they need me.
God is a relation-centered God. He is full of relationships. He has a relationship with the Jesus, with the Holy Spirit, with the believers. And He also would like to be in a relationship with those who have never known him. I think this is the reason He wants me to be more open to people, so that those people get to read us, to read Him in us.
(there may be a part 2 of this post)